It's a secret within a secret. I think Katsuie knows what I've been doing. It'll be funny when he sees how right he's always been. Hahaha.
It's a difficult one. Very difficult. It's calling through the layers, you see? Layers of life and death. It's needing a lot of blood and the right vessels. It's needing those things so that the right thing is called to take form. Otherwise, it's just a lich. Just a lich. No good for anyone.
The coins are nice. I realized what they could be used for when someone said it once. Was it Katsuie? Maybe. I thought about it and decided to try it out. I asked for money. Lots and lots of money. It's all gone now but they gave it. Something simple, see? Simple and easy. Don't ask for too much or they'll realize what you're doing. Then what? Hahahha. Then everything comes tumbling down.
Lord Nobunaga will not even remotely be pleased! He will tell me so many nasty comments about dragging him into this world without his permission. He'll probably even beat me viciously for having thought to even do something of this sort before he conquers this world.
When he gets really annoyed with me, he can't help but give me what I want. He may even KILL me with how much this will annoy him.
I can't wait. I can't wait! That is what I want more than anything else. A chance to kill him. A chance to be killed by him! Doesn't that sound like that? Like that? I still am a loyal retainer. I still am. Aren't I? I just want to experience every sort of pain I can be in by his hands. I just want to experience the end with him. That is how much I love him. So much.
Clarence, how do you love? Do you love? I hope you do. Your stomach will smile just like my heart will. Flowing, flowing, flowing.
I wish I could understand how humans love. But I can't. Not even a little. I love Kingo and want to spoil him. But when people threaten him, I end up laughing and laughing over their bodies. And then I think, shouldn't I have just scared them away? Is this how humans show their love? It doesn't seem right.
But Clarence, I love you still. I want you to learn. Clarence isn't like me so you can understand and you can be filled up. All the squirming, flowing. On the inside. Right?
That is why you should eat better and sleep more, too. Understand? You do. You always do!
No. I don't believe so. You talk a surprisingly small amount about yourself. It is because you are humble, right? Hahaha.
And also, you called me that when we first met! You did. So I know you know love. Brother, brother! Right? Tell me lots and lots of things. My eyes are just as hungry as my ears.
I love my elbow very much. I am thinking of breaking it off to set it on fire. :)
That sounds lonely, Clarence. Thoughts are important. Mine go churn, churn while others go like that, like water. Your thoughts always sound like water to me. Refreshing!
But Clarence isn't like that now. So now he is less lonely? Does that mean you are the most special of your family? Congratulations! Congratulations!
OK. Don't be sad. You are much more special. You could still be if you like? I never had one. I could be a good one. I wouldn't kill you. Probably! Brother? Think on it!
I look forward to it!
No one looks into it. Sometimes people try but they don't get it right. They ask me why I am doing something but they figured out my game but not the reason? How can you play and not know the why?
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It's a secret within a secret. I think Katsuie knows what I've been doing. It'll be funny when he sees how right he's always been. Hahaha.
It's a difficult one. Very difficult. It's calling through the layers, you see? Layers of life and death. It's needing a lot of blood and the right vessels. It's needing those things so that the right thing is called to take form. Otherwise, it's just a lich. Just a lich. No good for anyone.
The coins are nice. I realized what they could be used for when someone said it once. Was it Katsuie? Maybe. I thought about it and decided to try it out. I asked for money. Lots and lots of money. It's all gone now but they gave it. Something simple, see? Simple and easy. Don't ask for too much or they'll realize what you're doing. Then what? Hahahha. Then everything comes tumbling down.
I'm very excited. Are you excited, too?
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what's this lord of yours gonna do for me
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Even me, he will do nothing for! Hahaha.
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you are summoning your lord and master to the peninsula via the means of human sacrifice and a large number of mysterious, magical coins
when he gets here, there will be chaos, horrified civilians, presumably a little bit of death, blah blah blah
and this fellow won't listen to a thing you say
do I have that right?
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You understand! You understand completely!!
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I haven't been alive very long
so feel free to take this with a grain of salt
but that is maybe the CRAZIEST plan I've ever heard
EVER
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I'm very proud of it.
Lord Nobunaga will not even remotely be pleased! He will tell me so many nasty comments about dragging him into this world without his permission. He'll probably even beat me viciously for having thought to even do something of this sort before he conquers this world.
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he DOES know you'd like that
yeah?
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When he gets really annoyed with me, he can't help but give me what I want. He may even KILL me with how much this will annoy him.
I can't wait. I can't wait! That is what I want more than anything else. A chance to kill him. A chance to be killed by him! Doesn't that sound like that? Like that? I still am a loyal retainer. I still am. Aren't I? I just want to experience every sort of pain I can be in by his hands. I just want to experience the end with him. That is how much I love him. So much.
Clarence, how do you love? Do you love? I hope you do. Your stomach will smile just like my heart will. Flowing, flowing, flowing.
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I dont think MOST people love the way you do
(the sane ones, anyway)
but no
Im not really the "loving type"
doesnt seem like theres much point in it
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But Clarence, I love you still. I want you to learn. Clarence isn't like me so you can understand and you can be filled up. All the squirming, flowing. On the inside. Right?
That is why you should eat better and sleep more, too. Understand? You do. You always do!
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(and moving away from the mushy love stuff)
Ive got this new ability that Im still trying to work the kinks out of
how about I head over to your place some time
see if you cant lend me a hand
(before you bring about the end of the world and all, I mean)
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Something the fog gave? Please. I would love to help. Will it make everything all squishy on the inside?
And will it make you feel safer? Happier? Clarence has a nice smile. It smiles from ear to stomach! Eventually. So, it is all right.
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it'll make me happier
probably remind me a little of home, too
have I ever told you about my home?
it was nice
I didn't have a care in the world
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No. I don't believe so. You talk a surprisingly small amount about yourself. It is because you are humble, right? Hahaha.
And also, you called me that when we first met! You did. So I know you know love. Brother, brother! Right? Tell me lots and lots of things. My eyes are just as hungry as my ears.
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;)
anyway
its got nothing to do with love, me and my brothers
no more than you love your own elbow, anyway
we were all the same thing
like some great machine
our minds were in sync, thoughts were meaningless, everything was clear
all you did was move from one objective to the next
like water down a lazy river
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That sounds lonely, Clarence. Thoughts are important. Mine go churn, churn while others go like that, like water. Your thoughts always sound like water to me. Refreshing!
But Clarence isn't like that now. So now he is less lonely? Does that mean you are the most special of your family? Congratulations! Congratulations!
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special like a discarded elbow
let's stop talking about this, yeah?
Ill get myself over to your place and make your insides all nice and squishy
metaphorically, anyway
you ever had anyone peak into that brain of yours?
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I look forward to it!
No one looks into it. Sometimes people try but they don't get it right. They ask me why I am doing something but they figured out my game but not the reason? How can you play and not know the why?